A day suspended between death and life. Between crucifixion and resurrection. Despair and joy.
Elise was born on Holy Saturday in 2014. What a perfect day for her to be born...the significance of it hadn't dawned on me until today.
In the morning of that Holy Saturday, we hoped and waited...yet we also grieved. We grieved for what might be the end of our time on Earth with our sweet Elise. Though she was alive in my tummy, we weren't sure if she would make it through labor and delivery.
We were suspended between the fear of death and the hope of life.
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| The last photo taken of me while I was pregnant...less than an hour before Elise was born. |
As we wait in stillness this Holy Saturday for the glory of Jesus's resurrection, I am completely overwhelmed by what God was showing us in His perfect timing...how we waited for Elise, with tears and fear and anxiety (as we had been prepared by many doctors for her to be stillborn)...and how abundantly we were filled with JOY at her birth and life. In those moments holding her for the first time, I was so full of joy that my heart could have exploded. We thought she might be dead, that she would come out silent...and here she was... ALIVE!
We thought she might be dead. But she was ALIVE.
They thought that Jesus was dead...but on Easter Sunday, he was ALIVE.
Happy Easter weekend, everyone.
"Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me." -John 14:1
I have two boys Daniel 14 and Nathaniel who was also born April 19th 2014 at 9:09am. I am currently pregnant with my precious baby girl Sivan Josephine (Also another crazy coincidence in middle names, Josephine is my late mothers name😊) who was diagnosed at 12 weeks gestation with Trisomy 18. I'm 34 1/2 weeks so far and count each day with her as a blessing from God. After reading your blog I want you to know it was great to finally hear from someone who feels the way I do about so many aspects of this pregnancy. We too have hope for our daughter, praying for her to be part of that 10% that live past the first year but we are also aware of the terrifying reality we most likely will face in the coming weeks. It's scary and joyful all at the same time. Anticipating the arrival and meeting of our baby girl but dreading what fate may have in store for all of us. I pray to be as brave as you and your family were and I thank you for sharing your story. Elise Josephine has touched our hearts greatly ❤️
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your lovely comment! What great coincidences (some would call God winks) between our two stories. I pray that you get sweet time with your Sivan Josephine. Thank you for reaching out.
DeleteJessie (Elise's mommy)
Thank you so much for your lovely comment! What great coincidences (some would call God winks) between our two stories. I pray that you get sweet time with your Sivan Josephine. Thank you for reaching out.
DeleteJessie (Elise's mommy)